Identity Without Compromise
"U...Who R U?
One of the greatest curses and the deepest blessings in this flicker of consciousness between the two great voids of eternity is that we are left to define ourselves.Â Â Every day, every moment, with almost every action.Â Â This doesnâ€™t seem to shake everyone.Â Â I observe people in my own existential bubble sometimes envious of their ambivalence towards their own stories.Â Â But I guess thereâ€™s some sort of awareness threshold that keeps the majority of the populace from becoming too caught up in (what often feels like) a SchrÃ¶dingerâ€™s box of personal reality.
That wouldnâ€™t be too smart, biologically.Â Â Life demands spontaneity.Â Â Propagation of the species is impossible without a defined choice, in one way or another.Â Sometime in the course of the last 200 million years, as weâ€™ve made our way from the Great Rift to the great unknown, our ability to be the orchestrators of our destinies has transformed from biology to identity.Â Â And not simply identity but a linear evolution of identity, as it will be perceived and interpreted.Â Â Thereâ€™s a problem in this accepted and instinctually understood progression, because in our absolute most basic nature weâ€™re simple matter.Â Â Matter to atoms, and atoms to the subatomic.Â Â We are but energy.Â Â And on that subatomic level, things are neither and both particle and wave at the same moment until by observation a form is assumed.Â Â (Think when Egon conjured the Stay-Puft Marshmallow Man.Â Â A simple influence of consciousness chose a form, and energy obliged.)
Iâ€™m postulating this betrayal of quantum self as a partial explanation for the deep-rooted nihilism rampant in my generation.Â Â Weâ€™re beginning to realize weâ€™re not content to just call ourselves â€œartistâ€ or â€œdoctorâ€ or â€œteacherâ€.Â Â We know weâ€™re much more than what we do.Â Â Even if society necessitates we sacrifice those prismatic facets of self in the name of â€œresponsibilityâ€ and â€œsecurityâ€ with the dangling carrot â€“ a vision of temporary sacrifice for someday freedom â€“ leading most to a permanent amnesia littered with mightâ€™ve-beens.
Of course this is forever entangled within the strength and persistence of our own integrity. Â Integrity of identity may be one of the most important applications of the trait; without the passion to be true to one’s own self we would instantaneously leave the rest of our character open to suggestion and compromise as well. Â Plus, acknowledging the innumerable strands in our tapestries will help us to remember one very important thing about other people: Everyone is wildly interesting, beyond observable means.Â Â Beyond definable terms.
Thereâ€™s something so spiritually universal in that.Â Â Our right to our eccentricities and freedom from boxing in consciousness.
Note:Â Â To anyone out there integriously fighting death of unique-self that comes from acceptance of the standardized submission — remember your commitment to your individuality makes you a trailblazer of esoteric levels. Â For that alone, maybe you’ve won the battle.